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This story, told in the second person, is about a girl named Amara who lives an itinerant life with her mother in the United States. Amara’s father died in an offshore accident when she was a toddler, and she and her other received a large settlement that her mother used to buy a large house; however, her need for male attention soon drained her bank account. When Amara was six, she fell in a grocery store. She likes to think this was an actual accident, but it resulted in another large settlement and (for Amara) a permanent ankle brace. Her mother’s boyfriends used up the money in three years, so Amara and her mother began staging falls to sue companies.
Amara and her mother visit a law firm to take on their next case. Amara is pleased that the associate they talk to is a woman because that means that neither she nor her mother will have to offer oral sex in payment. When the associate declines their case, her mother stages a tearful diatribe while Amara fiddles with a letter opener. When the associate asks for the letter opener back, she tugs it out of Amara’s hands, slicing her palm. Her mother uses that as leverage to get the firm to pay her. With that money, she and Amara move into a motel; the mother entertains boyfriends while Amara goes to a nearby fair.
Amara doesn’t think about another lifestyle until the day she realizes she is pregnant. Amara considers the possible fathers: all men who demanded sex in exchange for services. Because they don’t have money for a doctor or time to visit free clinics, Amara starts to spend her limited money on books about childrearing. At six months pregnant, she points out to her mother that young children need a stable environment and suggests stopping somewhere soon. Her mother takes this as an accusation that she’s a bad mother and refuses to discuss the issue.
They stop at a grocery store so that Amara can buy fresh fruit, as she’s trying to eat healthier foods. She sees a mother fixing a girl’s hair and realizes that her mother never did that for her. Amara walks toward the back of the store to look at baby clothes, passing a group of boys with ice cream. She doesn’t see the puddle of melted ice cream they left behind and slips on it, painfully landing on her belly. Waking up in a hospital, she is told she lost the baby. Her mother comes in and strokes her head, saying that her fall garnered them $500,000. Amara realizes that from the outside, her mother looks like a caring parent.
The choice of the second-person point of view in this story serves a purpose. The narrative includes several sensitive topics, including sexual exploitation of a minor, statutory rape, and child endangerment. By putting the reader in the place of Amara, the story explicitly asks readers to see her difficult life through her eyes and feel the resignation and self-preserving numbness that she does.
The story is principally an examination of How Mothers Shape Their Children. Amara is a con artist not because she wants to be but because she never had a choice to do otherwise. This in turn shapes how she understands her situation: She “never considered another lifestyle, tethered to [her] mother by familiarity and a notion of loyalty” (86). She follows the path set for her, not even using her own name most of the time.
Amara’s acceptance of her lot in life stands in marked contrast to the behavior of her mother—another example of a defiant daughter insistent on forging her own path. She opted for their lifestyle even though she might have had other options: “She could have gone to her father, head bowed so low she’d have gravel and leaves in her hair, but she’d married against his wishes, moved to the States against his wishes, and had you against his wishes” (82). In addition to being proud, she feels entitled to a certain lifestyle, carrying around the picture of her former house; rather than a photo of her deceased husband and infant daughter, this “is the picture she clutches when she cries” (81). Though she too is victimized (specifically, by the men she brings home), her total lack of compassion for her daughter makes her a villainous figure; the best the narrator can say of her is that she too is a product of circumstances and temperament, observing, “Some people find it easy to be good when the going is good but lack the fortitude for hardship. Your mother is among them” (82).
By contrast, Amara’s sense of well-being hinges on her believing the best of her mother. She tells herself, for instance, that the first time her mother dropped her when she was six it was a genuine accident. However, Amara’s perspective changes when she discovers she’s pregnant and accepts another unchosen role: that of a mother herself. Through this new lens, she is able to question the choices her mother made in raising her. When Amara repeatedly states that they need to find somewhere to stop, her mother lashes out that Amara is accusing her of being a bad mother. Amara is stunned into silence, but her internal monologue suggests she agrees with her mother’s defensive self-assessment: “Was she a bad mother? You were fifteen years old and pregnant because she wanted a price cut on a battered green Toyota. You weren’t sure how to answer, so you didn’t” (89). The sight of the mother fixing her daughter’s ponytail further affirms this, as Amara realizes she never received that kind of gentle care from her mother.
Amara’s eager embrace of her pregnancy—e.g., her perusal of baby clothes—suggests that it has given her not only a new perspective on her childhood but also new hope for her future. In having a baby, she has a chance to provide the kind of mothering she never received herself. Her real fall in the store brings in a windfall of money but is a tragedy from Amara’s perspective; in losing her pregnancy, she loses both the opportunity to have love in her life and her incentive to separate from her mother.